Why am I venting here I never have before, maybe it's because my family gets so offended when I start speaking from the heart! FUCK! God just one makes me feel better! I try as I may be no matter how much effort I put in all I get back is failure! FAILURE and soon it won't be something I can fail at! Go drive buses and trucks instead! YAY! FUCKIng YAY!!! Why because I am lame and can't understand shit! I feel so worthless and just basically less useful then a grain of sand! The only thing I am able to do right now is provide a wonderful paycheck so my family can eat and have a roof, but if this keeps going that will be ripped from my hands, and then they will have to sit at home and worry that I am going to die at any second, why because I AM TOO STUPID TO PICK UP THIS STUFF!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHGGGGGG! FUCK!